愛主愛人

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10 月 21日 魚與熊掌

這豈是……買牛羊、僕婢的時候呢？（王下五 26）

牛羊、僕婢是當時社會成功的標記。就像約伯一樣，當聖經稱他為東方至大時，也就列出他所有的牛羊、僕婢的數目（伯一 3）。今日的基督教似乎也流行一種看法，就是如果你要榮耀神，見証有力，就要事業有成、學業有成、有財勢、有地位；以為這才能大大的榮耀神，說話就有人 聽、作事就具影響力。於是不少基督徒就致力於在社會中力爭上遊，以為一則可以為神增光彩，二則更有餘力去為聖工奉獻，一舉兩得。殊不知，勢力、才能從來不 是神要我們所倚靠，去成就神的事（參亞四 6）。保羅提醒我們，福音本是神的大能（羅一 16）。如果我們存這樣的心態，要為神去得世界，恐怕我們其實是同時愛上了世界和其上的事，愛父的心就不在我們裡面了（參約壹二 15）。弟兄姊妹，魚與熊掌是不能兼得的。

─陳明斌

我 們若有財、有勢，很有可能愛上了世界 和其上的事，這只是一個危機，也不是必然。若愛天父在萬有之上，產業是天父的祝福，有什麼不對呢？我估計，最主要是不追隨，不倚靠勢力和才能，而是靠天主 而成就祂的旨意。怎樣愛天父？第一、要認識祂－讀聖經，聽神父牧師講道；第二、與祂溝通，祈禱，聆聽；第三、作祂喜悅的事，愛人如己是祂喜悅的。

願各位都有愛主愛人的心！以上是靠主耶穌之名！亞孟！

主祐，ＪＣ上

迷失

主，我迷失了，前路茫茫，不知應走那條 路才好，求你帶領。“你是道路、真理、生命。”“隨著你走過這死亡的蔭谷，我也不害怕，因為有你與我同在。”“我依恃雅威，呼求主助，祂聽到我的聲音，我 憂傷的呼喊傳入祂耳裡。”“我的仇敵太強大，但祂解救我脫離我的敵人”。感謝你的應許，求你賜給我智慧，使我緊緊隨著你，不再迷失。因主基督之名，亞孟！

若１４：６　詠２３：４　撒下２２：７　撒下２２：１８

主祐，ＪＣ上

親密感？？！！

10 月 12日 親密感

然而我常與你同在；你攙著我的右手。……除你以外，在天上我有誰呢？除你以外，在地上我也沒有所愛慕的。（詩七十三 23, 25）

因此，我的心歡喜，我的靈快樂；我的肉身也要安然居住。……在你面前有滿足的喜樂；在右手中有永遠的福樂。（詩十六 9, 11）

有人統計過：在美國，每年有百分之三十的父親離婚後就不再見兒女。破裂的關系使做子女的內心很痛苦；年輕人覺得被遺棄，失去安全感，窮其一生去尋求彌補從父母親身上失去的愛，於是四處尋求親密的關系。

然而，人怎樣能夠建立真正的親密感呢？除了在友儕、伴侶中尋求，不要忘記以上帝為中心。當你越來越渴慕認識神，跟他溝通，虛假親密的需要就會減退。你跟他 越來越親密，會發現他是你最好的知心良伴。怎樣可以跟神建立更深刻的親密關系？答案是敬拜他！我們受造原是要敬拜神，敬拜讚美驅使我們親近上帝，進入他的 同在中。事實上，寂寞的現代人最需要這種親密關系，唯有創造我們的主，他熾熱的心能真正滿足我們內在深處的渴求！

─徐道勵

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這 個徐先生 說了一大堆親密感，究竟親密感是什麼？我和親人朋友的關係又如何？我平時沒什麼話說，不能溝通，沒有可能得到親密感？！這是否我的問題呢？我有沒有給人親 密感？我了解多少我的朋友？有沒有真的親密朋友？除了肯聆聽外，我是否專心聽？是否假裝有反應？亦有可能不夠細心，粗心大意？連能看見的弟兄也不能親密， 何況看不見的天主呢？

回 想自己， 經常對媽媽的憂慮恥笑，沒有分擔，沒有細心聆聽她的心聲，真有點兒不孝。求主從今天起，改變我，第一，多打電話回去。盡可能一至兩星期一次。二、用心聆聽。三、不 作批判。感謝主的帶領和引導，使我明白我要做的事。主求你時常幫我記著我對你這承諾。以上所求是靠主基督之名，亞孟！

Lord have mercy! Christ have mercy! Lord have mercy!

主祐！ＪＣ上

喪禮

星期日，去了姑姐的葬禮，沒有傷感，而且有點攪笑。

大表姐主禮，中式，燒香，三鞠躬禮。我們開始點香，她三枝三枝點，我因剛剛辦完喪事，告訴她上次那殯儀館的人，很多的一起燒。所以她又很多的一起燒。但是太多了，那些香互燒，著了火，救火救火，水！！！水！！！！喳！！！熄了！！！用水淋熄了香。姑姐有怪莫怪！！！大家都覺得很狼狽，很好笑。

一個輕鬆的喪禮，求主保祐她也能輕鬆地見到你。

求主也保祐我新結婚的朋友，有拖拍的人，沒拖拍的人，快要去旅行的朋友，剛去完旅行的朋友，失去親人的人，水災的人，地震的災民，使他們心中有平安。以上所求是靠主基督之名，亞孟！

主祐！
ＪＣ上

人心當狗肺

我人心當狗肺！！！我沒有感激朋友對自己的關心，還發了臭脾氣！我正衰人！Ｏｈ　Ｍａｎ！還一發不可收拾！鬧了幾天！

Ｉ felt sorry that I don't feel too sorry. I know I am wrong. How come I felt ok when I am wrong? God help me. Am I forgiven if I am not sorry for my sins even I confess? But I confess that I don't feel sorry. Only God could help me now. Oh God please help me to feel sorry and be a better person next time. Help me appreciate more... Help me see other's point of view. I know I am selfrightous this time and many times. Help me see my failures. Help me to be humble. No one can help me but you Lord.

The story begins in Alaska. Denali Park. We took a shuttle bus tour and we saw animals along the way. When we were leaving the park, I told everyone that I saw a lottery in the website for a yearly lottery. The lottery is for driving in the park during September instead of having to take shuttle bus. I like to enter the lottery next year. Driving in each park is my most prefer method of travel. Taking shuttle bus is never my preference. So much for this dream. My friend quickly said that it is very dangerous. Road is difficult to drive. Animal is very dangerous.... Yadi Yadi Ya.... I got furious and slam her back. I think I know why I can not control my temper. This is because a 20 year friend does not believe in my ability to access risk. She does not trust my ability to drive windy road. She does not trust my ability to stay alive. She does not know living outdoors and record nature's wonder is my dream job. Anyhow.... I forgot she is just worry about my wellbeing. She is worry that I will go back to my Fathers house without saying good bye. She is worry about not seeing me again. But I also believe, if God is willing, nothing would happened. I would enjoy my stay there. Taking good pictures. Or maybe a story or two about how to escape a bear or something. Life is full of adventures. Being outdoors might very well be one.

This is also the reason that I am not very sorry about my outburst. I felt that I have the right to get angry. But I also felt like I am ripping apart someone's good heart, someone's concern. God has a plan for everything. God is faithful and trustworthy. God also use circumstances to teach us lessons. God will not allow things to happen when He thinks you are not ready for it. So with this promise, I am so sure that I am well taken care of. Whether I get to go to Denali or not is God's will. Whether I see tomorrow or not is also God's will.

May be I should quit my job and start the adventure now. But then, I might not know what I am getting into. God did not put the courage in my heart to do that yet. Some day.... May be some day soon.

God Bless, JC